Stranger Family

Every time you do something
sweet
I feel love and warmth
for you
I begin to forgive
choose to forget
the past
and want the sweetness of you
back
but my heart is not for you
or wanted by you
you turn around
put on your masters mask
and demand to make me beg
you want someone to need and hate you
like a slave to her master
Instead
I hate you for wanting me to beg
instead of being happy to have me
want you, not need you
Want
You
but you want to be needed
to control the needy
you kill my wanting
of anything from you
even if it lands me cold, hungry,
or dead
You cannot love me
for you do not know me
I am something
that does not need life
but wants it

A Way

A Way

A door is a curious thing to walk out of
when it shuts
part of me closes too

whether from the out or the in
kept me leaving 
or left
neither way let's it really matter
as I believed it should
and told it would
many tears ago

A door is a pleasantness
to stride up to
my heart skips up to the wood
my handle grasping hand
blooming hopeful
fearful petals

enter through
discover what
awaits delights and who

can just stand there for a while
in the doorway
neither leaving nor coming
not left here nor going
there now, let it hold me
and in the while
embrace

Baby

days go by collapsing
my ideals
I have something
I can sell - myself

conflicted
on what I am
and even if I have a master
I adore
why my being demands them
or if it matters
that I don’t like it,
nor did I ask to be anyone’s wife


every body has them:
a limit, and a price

if I could shut up and believe in it
life would be grand
free of cares
simply never look into anyone’s eyes
I hate my being
crushed under a number
and all them who tie their worth over me

we buy and sell
rather than give and take
what the purchase of which
kills the purpose it fills
the choice to be and to love
freely

Social Zombie

Be happy
Keep pumping smiling pictures
Enjoy the journey
Sell me your two and a half kids 
Picket fence and dog
Dream

I do not like 
The sorrows
That balanced you
Taught you what it means 
To want

Is it not the journey 
to happiness 
That is fraught 
With an equal measure 
Of the opposite?

Check it out 
My latest pride
Our trip to Heaven
Vacation slideshow
wish you were here!

Every rosy cheek you see
Was built on a thousand tears
You saw
Any smile?
Carried a million fears

Getting here

You’re hoping 
with bated prayers
I will soon
Follow the wide path
Choose right way
Find the white Light

get Happy
stay Positive
Keep the Faith
Arrive at the Almighty
grand Holy 
Answer

you give me a Hug 
and Sympathy, 
say it’s so hard 
for me, you know
but what if I told you 
I like it Hard?

For you, To do:

Un-kiss me 

Un-breathe yourself into my heart

Unlock our limbs, 

Undo the dance we did
Unhaunt me

Un-imagine our dreams, those shared

And the rest we kept smiling secrets

Unwind our souls’ merging

Diverge we

Serenely sit, solitarily 

Un-loathed days lazy and unreached

Goals gaining, trust unbreached

Un-know me

Unclutter my plans, un-use me

Set me free from your loving hands

Stay outside, curious wanderer, please

Kindly confuse me

For here lie strands who beg untangling

whose tale can never rest undone

Unaware we can resolve to be 

Strangers, politely smile in passing

Fearless on the sidewalk
For you it's so easy

Unlove me

I see

You, slow like a midnight rainstorm
Deafening with your clean caress
clear past my vigilant conscious 
forget what I had to do

for you 

renew me 
over and again with your coolness
you come unstoppable
I can only run from or be overcome

by you

soft like the first drops
then mighty as the river flows over me
There's nothing ordinary nor easy that you are
none of your days can survive 

without you 

tasting 
everything
taking 
everyone 

with you

puddles for a child
tea for the sages
a billion years of tears you've cried
down every cheek with eyes like mine

on you go

a trillion tummies satisfied
a million slides you've muddied still
is there wisdom anywhere 
getting in

to you?

Spread me across the wild seas
trickle me down mountain meadow
take me with you 
one day

you will