Undefeated

Take my peace

or give me death

today my enemy

you are

tomorrow, my father

I will come back 

innocent 

you will have no choice

but smile to me

we will always win

No contest

If I could choose to use

a time machine or space ship

it would be no contest

give me time to go back

taste the things of the past again

fight the future we ended with

Crimson Cry

I bleed this blood 

its mine

not to kill with pills

nor stuff away the sight of

my origin 

your life line

what society seeing 

has no time for

the war in me 

the carnage

fights every day

each moon brings

sometimes regular

sometimes childlike

Over you

It seems I have cried

my last tear

Even then 

I tried to conjure 

the absence of you

to feel something 

the pain of lack 

but none was left 

I quite prefer smiling 

anyway

Kassandra

I hear everyone, and you

I feel every heart adored 

I see every soul, and yours

has or will ever live, becomes me

born and will ever give themselves up

whether or not I let them be

my mind tries out your words 

twist around the spiral staircase 

of your pupils, I run down 

into some deep hum 

your voice of god 

soothes some little girl I always was

cursed with no surprises

though I fake it, to hide my wiles

I want what we need

I know the way there

but again on deaf ears

fall my advices

I know everything 

you think

I feel everything

you feel

I see everything 

you are

Everything

And still remain 

unseen

Let the world be your home again

Let the world be your home again

go out in pajamas, polka dot

socks and slippers

wild hair

Four years old you

laugh like you don’t care

at your feet, crunch every dry leaf

return with laughter at everyone’s staring

See no borders

have no cares

of politeness

with your smile

carry lightness

of outside be 

unaware

just be bright

this is my prayer

for you, my angel 

boy, as you advance 

in height and years 

I want your jealousy

Part I

Feeling jealous
is not a bad thing
it’s unnatural 
not to be
and fucked up
to stuff it down

It finds us
when love is sleeping
a love we don’t use
but got used to keeping

Afraid of jealousy
is the most dangerous place to be
there, spells it casts
fits enraged
vibrate us violently
vengeance to spite the pain
destroy our destiny
this fear OF jealousy fulfils
fury burns out
deadly our eyes
we kill love with our minds


we kill love with our minds

We fall in love, love falls asleep 
biologically aware are we 
made with eyes green to be 
safe 
leaving, a fuse that's MADE to flip
for love life's reaping


It's no immortal thing
nor easy, as no baby is
to be kept fed and clean
every minute

Complacency needs us being
bound to coveting
that forces action
who sets the stage
for great romancing
to act in love or rage
is what defines our play
plays our song
sings our daily legacy

choosing to awaken
or fall in hate's activity
is what we need 
to be controlling of

Being controlling
is also not a bad thing



Part II


Jealousy loves a hiding place
when feared, shoved down, denied
it festers out of grace
roots in arteries, and residing
warps the blood
to pump hate's fire

Jealousy is a busy raccoon
a deer prancing through
flies never satisfied
pup begging for food
a rodent who scurries through nights
Butterfly seeking some nectar 
a pest, with a right to be

Asking simply, to eat 
and honour the fruit of love
if you’re done with it
when have your blinders kept them at bay?
When did smashing a Butterfly
save the day?

The worthy challenge
and thing to be hunted 
is jealousy enduring
without killing the beloved



Part III


When jealousy is what you love
strokes you like a cat triumphant
purposely you stir the pot
in hearts prevailing love,
showering affection 
it's more fucked up

When love isn’t 
what you really want
you hate yourself
cause that’s all you know of love
you are that
who was fed and cleaned
and never loved enough
sweet baby
I’m sorry
but this 
I can’t be jealous of

Ai ki do

Caught
In a moment of ecstasy
In gratefulness
In a bed lying
A sweet lie
Are we

Stuck In a moment
Living it over
Again
Still not
Over it

Hold on tight!

I am going deep
Centering, spin us around
These vicious knots we made
Play with me, roll free
Dance our fears away
Grasp onto me
Untie our fate
Over this
holy ground

Oman
I dreamt of peace
It was a man’s smile
passing me tea
Saffron carpet of magic 
by the ancient sea

Oman
how the woman’s sun shone
warm hug of burnt ochre 
wilderness never known
I lived in that day
forever

Oman
soft flute singing I hear
don’t wake me up please
play with me, dispel every fear
babies laughed pink and true
there were no tears

Oman
sacred land
no woman scarred of vermillion
nor child
from any man
ran

Judgements

fuck the system
fuck it until you love it

fight the pain of it
fight it until it feels like me

hate all I am
hate me until it becomes love

we didn’t create it
we don’t have to let it become us

Non-Negotiable

Love has no speed limits, no fuel

no borders to keep it in

nor courters out

it has no immunizing agents

nor courteous remarks, and once inside

there is no middle ground

love has no date of expiration

no resting breaks, no hours unavailable

no payday

it labors for no receipt

leaves none alone, keeps nothing neat

to be the seer and sage of love 

is to fail at it, unconditionally

impatiently it lays awake

on the doorsteps of the infinite 

asking for an audience 

to enter, begging to leave

the past behind

armed with only the logic 

of a lovers heart

love knows only 

one direction

whatever isn’t love, is hate

whoever isn’t loving...

Hush

It’s nice to be me
you say I’m a what?
a woman?
am I?
don’t want to be that
just want to be me

We’ll need you 
to act like you want it
not being a woman 
but everything under it
Manipulate, fight with the others
Suffer if you really want to earn your title

Shhhhhhhh......
I like to be sweet
lend me my voice, 
I won’t ask to be free
but, I can try jealous girlfriend monster 
wife material, 
cunning, if it pleases

I can pit us against each other
for the love of you
I can hate my best friend
my daughter
my mother
I can make them all end
In agony

I can win

I am no secret
no woman and I
nothing like a flower
when we gather our stormy eye, 
then comes the hour, 
to flatten the earth
in a downpour of power
every living thing 
shall be
never nourished  
not in our name
we could shower light 
onto no one with this reign
no more
not I
not this woman
am I?

Hush now.....
ladies are waiting
this sad rivalry out
women are sleeping 
everywhere but the earth 
yet dishing out plenty of dirt   
we bury our birthright
to carry each other in love
like this we can 
never win 

Code of conduct

Now that we know ourselves as lovers

There’s little fear can do to save us 

If we decide to lose each other 

I’d only fear the one who made us 

Tears

Tears
Comfort me
Where the world goes wrong
Love my skin
Like no human can

Hear me
Confess - wash my soul clean
When my spirit asks why
Answers me
Where Gods remain silent

Flavor my cheeks
When deities smite me
Kiss my lips
When lovers fight me
Allow me a way
On the sorrow-less seas
To be lightness

When the weeping ceases
My mask of salt feels me
Still clings to me tightly
As long as I need to be
Holds my pain
Like no human can

The Desert

The Desert takes nothing 

But what I take 

Asks for no one 

But who I bring 

The desert says nothing 

But what I say

I ask for some rain 

And it floods me away

Petrified testaments of our time

The desert keeps even those too

What I said and with who,

And all of my feelings for you

Cathedral of love

I want my own cathedral of love

with one master key

to open me up

or quiet me down 

as the case may be

When I have gone out 

to gather fruits of the sun

taught by the wind 

be washed by the rain  

and return 

I want only you there

for only me 

Only you

to know only my knock

open your doors

only our sacred breath

to share 

only my hug that you wait for 

only your smile I want to see

calm all of my secret fears

and the rest of me

When I lay down

I want only your voice

to whisper to me

only your hands

to keep me from shaking

only your song 

to awaken me

your kiss 

to sweeten only my years

only you

for only me 

Come Away to the Desert

Where scorch burns the rotten

pale rocks lie their stories along the riverbed

faults are many and blame is never done 

Come live in the desert

where luscious things die

and the dust of the ancients

tastes sandy in your eyes

Come lie in the desert with me 

until everything we imagine is true

we’ve been framed by many

jagged peaks pushing bravely up

outline the empty sky 

Come away to the desert

where there is no time 

but the bones of the earth 

no rules 

but the Sun’s unquenchable thirst 

Come away

and pray with me

until our minds become one

and God isn’t some mystery

we think is long gone

until our hearts feel the memory

we were always apart

but never alone

The way things are

I can’t change you

Wish I could

Change the past

That stung you hard

That stings me now

Agharta Awaits

When the earth is green wishes for the taking 

And goddesses rule each land

Don’t stop at the first star falling

There’s more to see 

Sail on

When the songs of the wind run out

And the calm of the waves overturn your soul

You don’t know how to get to where you don’t doubt who to go to

Feel the home that stands in your bones

When you crash your ship of love

On the rocks of hope

And the fruits aren’t as sweet as they said

Remember, there are many different Islands to see, gather yourself up and be free

When shipwrecked shards of hope

Lay scattered on the coast,

The Ocean roars stormy, and vast

One piece at a time is what builds a new boat

Every Explorer has been in a crash

Sail on, 

and on, 

as far as you can, 

as far as you must, 

as far as the ocean dares going 

For there are islands with sweetness Waiting ahead 

Hidden away and remote

Homes filled with laughter, 

Skies with love raining on the peaks of forever 

for all who discover their pleasures

They are simply invisible

Without hope

Real

I’m almost free

It’s almost time

I wanted something simple

All to myself 

Simple as I

I wish that was you

You’re almost perfect 

Like me